Footprints

My babies. We had a great time today. We played outside, played in the sandbox, went to the pool. Went to IHop to eat breakfast. We had a great time.

Here is the kids playing in the sandbox....Devan loves it! He loves all things that deal with dirt I do believe

Over the weekend we celebrated my sister, Stephanie's 30 birthday. We went to Pensacola and rode Go-Carts and ate at a Indian resturant. We had a great time. Great family time.

Last Thursday was Devans last day of school. He is going to 2nd grade! I cried. I cried so bad on the way home. I couldn't control it. I pulled out his report card and the first thought that came to my head was, "I need to call Granny!!" I call her every year on that day. I called her last year on that day and told her Devan was gonna repeat 1st grade. Her words that day to me... "Devan is a smart little boy. He just needs to learn it one more time and he will get it. He'll get it April. Not everyone learns the same pace. He'll get it."

I wanted to hear her words on this last day of school. I never thought in a million years she would die before this school year was over! I miss her. I know I say that every post but I do. So bad I do. There are so many first that I want her here for. I cry a lot. I sometimes need her reassurance during difficult times or just to "hear me out"

Through difficult times, through times at work, at home, or with the kids I always know that God is with me. At times I find when I pray I'll say "say hi to my Granny!" LOL

A poem that is one of my favorites has really helped me lately. I find it comforting.

Footprints

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was
walking along the beach
with the Lord.
Scenes from his life flashed across the sky
and he
noticed two sets of footprints
in the sand, one belonging to him
and the
other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life had flashed
before him, he recalled that at the lowest and
saddest times of his life
there was only one
set of footprints. Dismayed, he asked,
"Lord, you
said that once I decided to follow you,
you'd walk with me all the way.
I don't understand why, when I needed you most,
you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious child. I love you
and I would never
leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering
when you saw only
one set of footprints...
That was when I carried you."

3 months and Laila Graduated Pre-school (VPK)

Its been 3 months today. I can't believe it. I can't believe that my Granny has been gone for 3 months. It seems so unreal. It really seems as though she is on a little vacation and will be back soon. It doesn't seem permanent.
It isn't permanent really. I will see her again and she will be "up and about" as Devan says. I miss her terribly. I miss her more and more everyday!

Laila graduated from VPK yesterday. It was so emotional on so many levels. She is my baby nad will be going to kindergarten in August! I wanted Granny there. I cried during parts of the ceremony!

Mother's Day 2011

Another month

It's difficult. We have enterd another month. Today is May 1st....
Granny passed in February. Its still hard. Hard to know time is getting farther in between my last time with her.
It takes a lot of strength to not break down and cry. Sometimes that strength fails me. It hurts the same as it did. It just doesn't hurt every moment of everyday.

Psalms 119:28 "My soul is weary with sorrow: strengthen me according to your word."