Happy 5th Birthday Laila

Happy Birthday to my baby girl! We had a little party and a great time! Laila received tons of babies and barbies for her birthday and she was so happy.

Dear Laila,

I love you so much. You are a sweet and loving little girl. Your determination and strong-willed attitude will get you far in life. I can not imagine my life without you in it. I love your funny little sayings and your sweet and sassy humor. I love how I can tell how you feel just from the look of your eyes. Granny always said you had such expression with your eyes from the minute you came home from the hospital !!

You have had a big week this past week...the start of kindergarten and your birthday in the same week!

I love you baby. I love you dearly and wish you the best birthday ever. You will always be "Baby Lu Lu"

First Day of School

Today my babies started school. Laila went to Kindergarten and Devan is in 2nd grade! I was so emotional this morning!

Devan said he was nervous. Laila said she want to know her friends in her class. She checked, double checked, and triple checked that I would be there to pick her up. (Just today-after that they will ride the daycare van)

I cried as I pulled out of the parking lot of school. I cried because my baby is in kindergarten. I cried because my baby is in 2nd grade and gave me the biggest hug when I left his classroom. I cried because I miss my Granny on this important day. I would have in the past called and told her how the "drop off" went as I have done every year since Devan was in Kindergarten. It is an adjustment that I am not taking easy. There are so many first this month that she isn't here for.

Here is Devan and Laila after eating a yummy breakfast before leaving for the big day!

Laila ready to go. First day of Kindergarten, age 4

Walking up to the school.

Outside the school

A whole new world has happened today.... 2 kids in school and 2 kids with homework, Cheaper daycare (before and after school!)

I miss my "babies" already!

Laila

I feel overwhelmed. My baby starts kindergarten on Monday. I'm sad. I know (hope) she will be okay. I will be taking Devan and Laila to school and picking them up on Monday. ( I took the whole day off) I am going to take lots of pictures. I can't believe my baby girl is going to be in school. It seems like yesterday I was bringing her home. She will be 4 still when schools starts and there are children in her class that turn 6 a week later! So, she is a YOUNG kindergartner as her birthday isnt until a few days after school starts. Pics to come on Monday after I wipe my, i mean, her eyes! =(

My Granny... with Jesus for 6 months

I must admit i was going to write this yesterday but i had a horrible day. It really hit me hard yesterday when I woke up. I cried in the shower. I cried on the way to work. I cried at work. I cried at home. I cried before bed. Needless to say, I cried a lot!

I miss my granny so bad. Her death has impacted me so much in so many ways. It was hard yesterday. She has been gone half-of-one year. I don't want time to go forward because it is longer since the time I last spoke to her. She was my friend. I am having a hard time dealing with her death. I can't seem to grasp it. I want her here with me. This is a really hard month due to the fact that Devan and Laila both have birthdays and Laila starts kindergarten. I always call and tell granny how the day went. I tell her the minute I drop them off.

I have always loved this poem and is the last few months I have read it over and over. It is one of my favorites!

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.

This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.

The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.

Sends chills day my spine when I read it.

Devan's 8th Birthday

Devan turned 8 years old! (im a little late at blogging) We had a great time! We went to Big Kahunas and Fat Daddy's Pizza and Arcade. We had a little get together for cake and ice cream. I can't believe my baby boy is 8.


Devan and Grandpa!

At Big kahunas

((I'll post more pics later)))

Dear Devan,

Eight years ago. Eight years ago my life was forever changed. I can not imagine not having you in my life. You're senstive ways, funny laugh, goofy sense of humor and adorable personality make me love you whole-heartedly. You and I have been through ups and downs together. We have been through some emotional rollar coasters. I cherish you and will live my life protecting and loving you. I love you more than words and will be here for you for the rest of my life. I know you will go far in life. Your "love to clean" attitude and willing to help out will make a women happy someday. She will be the lucky one! I love you baby! You will always be a baby boy and hold a special place in my heart. You are a mamas boy! Happy Birthday!!!!!!